809 miles from Virginia to Kentucky. 809 very long miles. I would need every bit of that to prepare myself for the coming days. I was finally going to meet my father, my sisters, my brother, my grandmother, my family. I thought to myself, What do I say? What do I wear? Don't Cry! So many thoughts, so little time. We arrived at our hotel way early, mainly because my super trucker husband wanted to leave earlier than originally planned, and he drove straight through. I called Jami when we went through Nashville, which is 2 hours from Paducah, KY. She lives 2 hours away from Paducah in Missouri, so she was to meet us at the hotel when we arrived. Thank goodness we were early and she wasn't ready to leave yet. I wanted time to make myself look less like I had been riding in a vehicle for 13 hours. We checked into our hotel and I had an hour to make myself look presentable. I was surprised to find myself less nervous and more excited than anything to finally get to see her! After changing clothes twice, flat ironing the hair, and 100 trips to the mirror, she was in the parking lot! The boys and I rushed down to meet her. When she got out of her yellow VW bug, my first thought was MY SISTER,she is so BEAUTIFUL. My second thought was OH THANK GOD! She had hips! We immediately embraced and so did our kids. Dayton and Jacob said Hi and grabbed there Nintendo DS's and they would be inseparable the remainder of the trip.
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Jami and I |
We decided to go on over to Butch and Geri's since we had so much of the day left. Jami said they lived about 35 minutes from Paducah, so we followed her. I thought for sure that would be the longest 35 minutes of my life. I just knew I would start hyperventilating before we got there. But strangely I was very calm. Almost too calm. When we arrived at there house, I sat in the truck for a second and remembered the words that a very good friend told me, "Just Breath". And I did. As I walked up with Jami, she hugged me and said "you okay". I replied "Yeeeaaah?" And there he was. Standing in the doorway. Jami went first and hugged him. Then it was my turn. I just knew if he hugged me he would feel my heart beating through my chest. Just breath, Just breath, Just breath. He walked up, this mountain of a man, so tall I thought I may need to take a running jump to reach him, but I didn't. We hugged and it felt as if I had been hugging him everyday for the past 28 years. We went inside and sat down. I noticed that in the corner there was a shelf with all the pictures of the grand kids on it. My babies pictures included. That was a great feeling. He was sitting in his chair. I was staring at him, hoping he wouldn't notice. His eyes got me. They are very small and squinty but they smile. I love that. Carl's eyes smiled too. Of course he was smiling and he looked at me and said "Man, I'm so glad your finally here." I said "Me too". "You look like your mother", he says. I replied "I'll forgive you for that one". I don't care who you are, when your in your 20's you don't want to hear that you look like your 50 year old mother, unless of course your momma is smokin' hot! Mine is a beautiful woman, but for some reason, I hate it when people say that to me! He laughed and said, "You have the same facial structure, but honey your all Parker", "I seen them ears!". Imagine every thing I quote in a Kentucky accent if you really want to appreciate this story!
The rest of the crew slowly began to emerge. Geri, his wife, got back from the store and came in and hugged me. No one has ever made me feel so welcome in there home as she did. She is a firecracker. One of the first things she said to Jami and I was, "Girls, I'm gonna tell ya'll right now, Don't let that man right there fool you. He might put on a halo and try and make ya'll think that he did no wrong with each of your mothers, but he must have done something, if three woman, hate his guts as much as your mothers hate Butch Parker!" The third woman in the story would be my 27 year old sister, Kyrsten's mom. Kyrsten's story is very similar to mine. He wasn't in her life either for reasons far beyond my right to talk about, and when Kyrstens mom remarried, she was adopted. When Kyrsten was 19 she came to visit them and after staying a few days and making a not so great impression on the family due to her wild and selfish manner, she disappeared, hurting not only our dad, but our sister Samantha very much as well. This made Samantha, and Geri very apprehensive about me. Their fear that I would do the same thing was made very vocal. I promised Geri and Samantha, that I would not have traveled 13 hours just to check someone out and that once you got me you are stuck with me. Samantha arrived with the rest of the kids and they all piled in the house. Samantha walked in first and immediately hugged me and said "I'm so glad your here, Sis". Then Kristy and Michael. Kristy and Michael are Geri's kids from a previous marriage, but were basically raised by Butch. Kristy said "Hi" and ran for the bathroom. Michael, who has Cerebral Palsy, came over and hugged me. And then Ryan came bee boppin' through the door. My first impression of Ryan was, Oh my, he's a thug! But I would later find out that not only does he look just like his big sister, he has a really sweet heart that I don't even think he knows he has. But I did realize why every time I talk to our dad, he asks if he can send Ryan home with me. The rest of the time spent that afternoon was just talking. Geri said to me, "We don't have a lot of anything around here, but what we do have is family and love". "If your looking for more than that, than honey, your in the wrong place." I loved that comment and that will stick with me forever. I got to meet my Grandma Janet. She is a beautiful woman. So beautiful. She comes from a very large family as well. Her mother, Grandma Marvel, had like 10 kids and I probably have that wrong. But it was a lot! Uncle Darryl came and I got to hug him! I was pre-warned about him, he is the drunk of the family. I just thought he was funny, and what was even funnier was watching Geri yell at him! We went back to Paducah and Jami came with us but was to go back later that evening and stay with Sam. My husband had different plans for us. He went and got her a room at our hotel for the next two days so that she wouldn't have to go back and forth from Paducah to Marion, this would allow us and our kiddos to spend as much time as we could. So we invited Samantha and Kristy to come out and stay with us, but they couldn't ,which totally stunk, because I was really looking forward to spending time with them too. We spent that evening talking in her room, while Zach and Sophie played on the air conditioner unit and Dayton and Jacob sat in the bed playing their DS's . It was amazing. I don't think I have ever felt so close to someone that I have just met. From the moment we talked I felt this way, but it was an even bigger bond being with her.And the bigger that bond was growing the harder I knew it was going to be to say goodbye.
From left: Zach, Sophie, Dayton and Jacob |
The following night Butch was playing in Paducah, so we all stayed in town. We went to downtown Paducah and visited the River Heritage Museum. There isn't much to do in Paducah, even though it is a large city. So we ended up back at the hotel swimming pool, where the kids had a blast. Afterwards, our cousins Jenna and Delanie came out to the hotel to watch the kids, so we could go see Butch play. Sam and her husband DJ met us at the hotel and we followed them to the Eagles where he was playing. I had one image of this man, since I knew of his existence and that was a man with no face on a stage, so when we walked in and I saw him standing there doing what he loved, maybe it was all the cigarette smoke, but my eyes immediately teared up. Listening to him that night was incredible. He has so much talent. More so than I ever could have imagined. They told us that everyone there knew my story so don't be surprised if a lot of people wanted to meet me. Everyone was so welcoming. I got to meet Wayne, the man I contacted on facebook, that spilled the beans to Butch about me. I hugged him and said, "I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you". He said "yeah, you would honey". We talked and he told me as soon as he saw that first message from me, he knew what was going on. Jami and I watched as everyone danced. We didn't get the dancing gene. But Samantha, Kristy and Geri were some dancing fools. God I wish I had that rhythm. Geri talked to Matt and I the entire night. She told us how her and Butch had been together for 25 years and there have been more downs than ups but she stays with him, because in the end, he is her best friend. It was a great night and I was beaming with excitement and joy. We had so much fun.
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Butch and Me |
Sunday would be the day I would get to meet the majority of the family. All the Aunts and Uncles would be at Butch and Geri's for a cookout. I woke up sad. As excited as I was to meet everyone,I knew this would be the day I would have to say goodbye. The emotions started early that morning while Jami was packing up to check out. Dayton and Jacob asked if Dayton could go back to Missouri with them. Without hesitation I jokingly said "Sure!". But you don't tell a 9 year old that and not expect him to start packing his bags, which is exactly what he did. He packed up his book bag and went straight for Jami's car. I had to take him back to our room and explain to him that it wouldn't be the last time we would see him, that this would be the first of many visits, but the more his tears fell, the bigger the lump in my throat got. When we got to Butch's all the kids screamed for the pool and that's where they would pretty much stay the entire day. Papaw Butch got in with all the kids and gave them pony rides around the pool and caught them as they jumped in. Grandma Janet was busy cookin' at her house while the rest of us sat around watching the kids and telling stories. At one point, I made Geri get out pictures of Ryan when he was little. After seeing a picture of him on the wall, I realized how much he and I really looked alike. She got those and the book I made for them and in comparison, I determined that Ryan would make a much prettier girl! Uncle Daryl came and even got in the pool with the kids. Uncle Jerry, the po-po as they call him, is a police officer in Marion. He is the "pretty boy" of the family they say, but he was very sweet as was everyone else. Tammy and Tanya were down at Grandma Janet's, so we went down to meet them. Tammy had the smiling eyes like Butch and Tanya was just as beautiful. We sat in Grandma's floor and looked at pictures of Butch when he was younger, which I looked forward to seeing. He was a handsome guy, with the same hairstyle back then as he has now. That's the one thing they make the most fun of is his feathered hair-do. We all ate and boy was it good. Grandma Janet made ham and potato salad and a huge spread of great food. I got to try some of her Pig-Lickin' Cake which was delicious and when I asked her why its called pig-lickin' she said because every time she made it the pigs would come a'lickin'! She's so cute! The boys were outside playing horse shoes so Jami and I decided that we would start rounding everyone up for pictures. And there was that lump again. I knew that once pictures were over it would be time to say goodbye. Getting all nine kids together was a mess, but we eventually got a really good picture of them all. Family pictures were easier and I wish I would have gotten more.
Papaw Butch's Grandbabies |
Jami and I started gathering up our little ones and started saying goodbye. The first person I said goodbye to was Kristy. I gave her my phone number and told her to call me if she ever gets bored. She said that's all the time so she would. I know she probably won't, but I wanted her to know that I am here for her if she ever needs me. The entire time I was there, she kept telling me what an outcast she was in the family, that she is the "wild child" of the bunch. What I saw was a very sweet girl who has the best personality. She made my dimples hurt I laughed so much with her. I gave each of the little ones a hug and told them they could come see Aunt Marti anytime they wanted. Then I found Samantha. Sam was the most affectionate of all. She would walk up and hug me just because and say how much she was glad I was there and that she loved me. I felt a connection with Samantha on so many levels. Her husband DJ is very much like my Matt. Well, I guess much like most husbands, they can be giant butt heads one minute and the most adorable person the next. I really liked him even though, I didn't think I wanted to. I felt this overwhelming need to protect her. My sisterly instinct just kicked in with all these girls. I am very grateful for the life I've had in Virginia, but I felt like I missed out on so much with them. I never got the chance to protect them from bullies, but you can bet I'll be there from now on. I knew the hardest goodbye would be Jami, so I saved her for last. As soon as I hugged Samantha I immediately started blubbering. I didn't want to because I knew my make up would run and then they would really see how much Ryan and I looked alike, but I couldn't help it. Ryan hugged me and said "I WILL be coming to the beach"! Geri and everyone crowded around me, telling me not to cry because it wouldn't be the last time. I know that, but I was just so happy and sad to say goodbye.Uncle Jerry gave us the invitation to stay with him rather than a hotel next time. When Butch came over to say goodbye, I was overcome with tears. He hugged me and with my head in his chest I heard him say, "don't cry". But that just made it worse. I never imagined this day would come and it was here. And it would be the first of many goodbyes. So hopefully this would be the most emotional, or next time I'll have to bring a suitcase of tissues. As soon as Jami and I met eyes and then looked at both our boys crying in the car, we bawled. I'm so grateful for her. I'm grateful for each and everyone of them. But had Jami not responded to that email, we wouldn't be there. We hugged and said our goodbyes. And that was it, we blew the horn when we left and I haven't stopped crying since. I am so thankful for this experience and can't wait for the next visit, only they need to bring there hillbilly butts to VA, because that is a very long drive! Ha ha.
From left: Uncle Jerry, Aunt Tanya, Butch, Grandma Janet, Aunt Tammy and Uncle Darryl |
On the ride home, I thought about how truly blessed I am. I have been welcomed and loved by three families. 28 years ago, the Vanover family brought me into there home and into their hearts and made me there child, made me a granddaughter, a niece, a Vanover. 18 years later, I became a Combs. I couldn't have asked for a better family to marry into. My husband, my boys and myself are so lucky to have the support and love of his amazing family. And now I'm a Parker. In the short 3 days that I spent with them I learned so much. You don't have to have "things" when you have the love of a family. You don't have to know someone for more than a few days to know you love them.And, Love is an instinct, its not something that you must learn to do its something you have in you, and in an instant it can overcome all things.
From Left: Samantha, Jami, Grandma Janet, Me and Kristy |
From left: Me, Ryan, Samantha and Jami |